“Human character evermore publishes itself. The most fugitive deed and word, the mere air of doing a thing, the intimated purpose, expresses character. If you act, you show character; if you sit still, if you sleep, you show it. You think, because you have spoken nothing when others spoke, and have given no opinion on the times, on the church, on slavery, on marriage, on socialism, on secret societies, on the college, on parties and persons, that your verdict is still expected with curiosity as a reserved wisdom. Far otherwise; your silence answers very loud. You have no oracle to utter, and your fellow-men have learned that you cannot help them; for oracles speak. Doth not wisdom cry, and understanding put forth her voice?”
- from Ralph Waldo Emerson’s Essay on Spiritual Laws
They’ve made another movie about you. Soon, it will be released in hundreds of theatres for thousands of people to watch and critique. Are Christians excited about it? I’m not. Does that make me less of a Christian?
I don’t know what to think about it, but one thing remains constant each time a new movie about you gets released: they perpetually portray you as a fair-skinned pretty boy. But the Word in Isaiah 53:2, when predicting your coming, described You like this:
For he grew up before him like a young plant and like a root out of dry ground;
he had no form or majesty that we should look at him,
and no beauty that we should desire him.
So why must people continue making dramatizations about your life and misrepresent you? And to top it off, they profit from it. Perhaps you never intended for yourself to be made into a movie hero. To me, You’re my every day hero.
I can’t see you, Lord, but I know you. Help me see your truth in all things so that I can see clearly and find my way through this life. Open my eyes to the things in your Word and not the things in this world.
(in no particular order except what simply came to mind)
I just received some very sad news from my friend that her grandpa passed away. She’s absolutely heartbroken but even more so is her grandma who he has now left behind. He was 92. Some of you may have heard about it on the news today. Her grandpa was Harold Camping.
I had no clue. Living in Australia tends to do that to me. I’m totally out of the loop on things happening back in the U.S. But this–this is different. It’s not just news. It’s something I’ve thought about so many times in my life. It’s a moment I once dreaded and a moment I sadly confess, I once hoped for–that Harold Camping would go away.
Because you see, I used to be a strong believer in his teachings. I would cling to his every word, his interpretations, his mathematical equations, and his predictions. I believed them to be truth because they were, according to him, based on God’s truth. But when Jesus didn’t come back in 1994, I started to question everything. About God, about myself, about truth. It was only years later when I left to attend Bible college that I even thought to question Harold.
Some of you may wonder what took so long. Perhaps it’s because I’ve only always known him to be a family man. A family man who runs a radio station. And that radio station is the reason my parents became Christians in the first place. My father often recalls the story of when he was flicking through the radio channels in the car and stumbled across Family Radio and from that point on, he never switched the dial. It’s been on ever since.
In our home, I grew up listening to Family Radio and could always recognize Harold’s voice. It was familiar, gentle, and comforting. Oftentimes, it would put me to sleep–mostly on Sunday mornings when I’d be sitting in one of those stiff, cold chairs in that vacant, echoey building draped with oversized red velvet curtains as a backdrop. How often I would day dream during those moments but look forward to open singing time when he’d let us choose our favourite hymns and lead us all through a half hour or so of solemn worship.
Some of the best times of my life have been with Harold and his family. My best friend was one of his granddaughters. She and I were inseparable. Every July, we couldn’t wait to meet up at Mission Springs for Family Radio Bible Camp which was an annual tradition started by this man and his ministry. I absolutely loved it–it was the one week I would look forward to all year, every year–even more than my own birthday. It meant I got to see my best friend, run around freely, go to classes on my own, eat watermelon and ice cream, sing songs, make crafts, go on hikes, and just be a kid. It shaped me. And quite honestly, I don’t think I’d be the same person without all those summers at Mission Springs. And it’s all thanks to Harold.
But as I got older and the teachings got a bit, well, let’s just say less theologically sound, I started to really dislike him. I hated knowing that my parents were being taught something so out of line with God’s Word. I hated knowing that so many thousands of others were being misled as well. But mostly, I just hated knowing that he thought he could calculate my God. The One he’d been teaching us was so infinite in wisdom, so omnipotent, and so powerful. How the created could reduce the Creator to a mathematical prediction boggled my mind and filled me with the most incredible amount of resentment toward him.
Yes, the same man who I found so endearing. The kindhearted and inviting old dude whose family I often joined for summer camping trips at Lake Del Valle and other random holiday gatherings. Him. How did I ever reach the point of wishing him dead and gone?
Today it happened–Harold is gone. He’s left us. And how do I feel? I don’t know. If you were to ask me the same question in December of 2010 when my parents sat us down near the Christmas tree and basically told us, in all seriousness, that this was in fact our last Christmas together, I would’ve had a different reaction. But so much has happened since then. So much has changed. And not just with Harold but with me.
They say time heals all wounds but I don’t feel as though anything has been healed. Not with the passing of time nor with Harold gone. To the world, all that’s left is the memory of his life so full of Bible study, controversy, and media attention. But what does it mean for those of us who knew him? Who grew close to him? Who were welcomed into his family?
He was a real man with a real purpose. He had a wife and a family he loved. He cared for people. He had a passion for truth and longed for others to know it. He loved reading God’s Word and sharing what he learned with others. And boy could he sing the shit out of “Hark! The Herald Angels Sing” every year at Christmas service. These are the things I’ll remember. These are the things I hope others will, too.
Lord, I’m grateful for Harold Camping. And I want to thank you for the love You showed me through him. Because of him, I was able to draw closer to You, to Your truth, and to Your realness.
The other day I was listening to a song with my husband that brought me to tears. It was as if it had been written just for me and the author knew my exact situation, all that I’d been going through over the past year with my family, and the incredibly heavy toll it had taken on my heart.
The lyrics, the melody, the flow, the escalating verses and chorus–it all came rushing through me and then with all calmness it brought a tender hush to my tortured mind, gently whispering soft comforts to ease the disquiet of my soul. Perhaps the song wasn’t written just for me, but I’d like to believe it was. Because to me, it is absolutely perfect.
How is it possible to feel so understood by someone you have never met in person? The words written could not be any more fitting–they are the emotions I have experienced time and time again, but never had the energy to express; they capture the thoughts which have filled my mind but could never say aloud; but now, they are here. So perfectly composed and so well delivered.
I couldn’t ask for a better gift at this time of the year. It reminded me that I’ve made it through those dark times. It propels me toward the next thing and motivates me to fix my eyes on what’s ahead, and to quit treading through the old. And so, I’d like to express my humble appreciation and thanks to the One who gave life to the world’s greatest poet and paired him with a talented Australian musician to create such a beautifully moving and soulful song.
Lord, your timing could not be more perfect. And for that and so much more, I want to say thank You.
Is it just me or has the word “literally” become the new replacement for “like”? I’ve been hearing this word repeatedly misused (yes literally) not just by gossiping teenage girls on the bus, but by full grown adults at cafes, businessmen and women in suits in the city, celebrities and politicians on television and in the media. Each time I hear it misused, I have to refrain myself from walking straight up to that person and slapping them across the face. And no, not in an exaggerated sense. I mean the opposite of that–literally.
What is causing this outbreak on the English language? Is it because we now live in an age where the vernacular of the general population has been reduced to internet lingo and hashtags? Have we truly lost all sense of form and structure in our way of speaking? Do we not have hundreds of more meaningful, accurately descriptive words in our vocabulary to utilize? Or are we so starved of intellect that we can no longer distinguish the difference between that which is literal and that which is simply an exaggerated expression? Yes, I’m sure you may have felt like a diva when you put on those high heels but no, you did not “literally” look like Beyonce. Yes, I believe that comedian made you laugh really hard but no, I’m sure you did not “literally” pee in your pants.
Stop the abuse, buy yourself a thesaurus, and get a better vocabulary. Literally.
My mother was born with a congenital heart defect. It caused her a lot of pain for most of her life, and it wasn’t discovered until a few years ago, when it was finally treated with a special type of heart surgery.
Ever since then, I’ve wanted to paint this for her. Like most mothers, mine has a big heart full of love and patience. I grew up listening to her singing hymns, oftentimes while she watered the roses in our front yard. The title of this painting comes from the first line of one of the songs she would sing called “In the Garden.“
Some people feel closest to God when they’re in church or at Bible study; or they feel close to Him when surrounded by other believers or when singing or listening to worship music; or they feel close to Him when they’re alone in a room, in prayer and meditating on the Word.
Yesterday at breakfast, my husband told me he feels closest to God when he’s creating art. And it’s his favourite thing to do: to create. He creates every day. He does it for a living and he does it for a hobby. So the only conclusion one can arrive at is that my husband must feel close to God all the time. And that’s the truth.
This caught me off guard because for most of my life, I’ve been told that in order to be a good Christian, I need to do everything in that first list–the Christian activities list. Of course, no one in the church actually calls it that, but we all have a general idea of what it entails. I’ve always felt pressured to have to meet these prerequisites. It’s what gets you approval. But from whom? God? Or other Christians?
When I stopped to think about it, I realized my relationship with my Saviour has nothing to do with going to church or not going to church; going to Bible study or not going to Bible study; singing worship songs or not singing; praying or not praying. I feel closest to Him when I write.
Each time I sit down to put words together to express what’s on my heart, I feel incredibly connected to the One who created me. I have something in common with Him. Shouldn’t I? Shouldn’t we all? Didn’t He tell us He made us in His image? Am I not supposed to be able to relate to Him on other levels? Didn’t He create us so that we could have a relationship with Him? A friendship with Him? Know our purpose in life and find meaning in Him?
My God is an Author, and to me, He’s the best writer the world has and will ever know. I’m only a small part of His plan. I’m here because He wants me to be here. I have life because He gave me life. I know who I am because I know Whose I am. And I love to write because my heart is full of things I long to say and share.
Many years ago, my Creator couldn’t help but pour out His heart into a book. He wrote. And His message is eternal and relevant to this day.
When do I feel closest to God? When I read His book and when I write.
I used to get in trouble for thinking too deep and too far and too much. I suppose those are things my mother doesn’t like because every time she’d bring it up, there’d be a negative tone in her voice. ”Why do you even think that far?” she’d say, almost disgusted. Then she’d follow it up with a Bible verse that said something about, “Whatever is true, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and worthy of praise, let your mind on these things.”
Perhaps any normal child would take this as a sign to stop, to quit, and to avoid asking questions. But I wasn’t your normal child, and I never really quit the habit.
Now that I’ve grown up, I’m starting to realize what my mother actually meant. Maybe even why she didn’t like or appreciate my questions. It’s because people her age didn’t ask questions; but now, those people? They are my people, my peers. At some point, I somehow entered arrogant, monotonous adult land where everyone’s an expert on everything and nobody asks questions anymore. They just tell you stuff. Even stuff you could give a crap about.
This scares me. Grown ups, adults, whatever you want to call them–they seem to have lost all curiosity. Somewhere along the line, these kind of people stopped being fascinated with life. They’ve grown dull and boring because they know too much, have seen too much, experienced too much. They walk around confidently as if they have all the answers to anything you’ve ever wanted to know.
But ask these same people to define the word “truth” and ask them what they believe about death and all of a sudden, they’re silent.
Note to self: don’t stop asking questions.
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